a serendipitous synchronicity…
February 6th, 2007
I suppose part of me (and at the moment I’m exploring the rather contradictory parts of me) is skeptical of the serendipitous and the synchronous. I’ve done all the reading. The Artist’s Way set me on the path I’m on right now, for which I’m very grateful, and I’ve even poured over Jung. I want to believe that the universe has a habit of providing what we need when we need it, but I just don’t seem to get the little messages so many seem to, that tell me I’m on the right track, or something or someone popping up in my life at just the right time. Maybe it’s just that I’m not looking or listening properly.
All that said, yesterday I was hit in the face with a serendipitous synchronicity that improved my mood no end, and made me hungry for more of the same. I wasn’t having a good day. I was lost in feeling sorry for myself and questioning where I was with my life: An artist and a friend whose work I admire greatly and who is the same age as me is currently hanging a major show of her work and put simply (and not very attractively) I was jealous. Very jealous. I was getting very lost in being hard on myself for not being as prolific, as successful and as tenacious and my friend. I was filled with a huge sense of urgency, that there just wasn’t enough time to do what I want to do with my life. I wasn’t being very kind to myself.
Catching up on a friend’s blog I aimlessly clicked on a link, that led me another page that lead me to Jonathan Cainer’s horoscope page. Clicking on my star sign I read “What’s the hurry? What’s the rush?” Writing it here, it all sounds rather trite (there I go being hard on myself again) but yesterday those words and what followed were very soothing, just what I need to read and felt a lot like a gift from thoughtful friend. I wish I could say the calm they engendered had lasted, but sadly today I’m feeling rather unsettled and harried again. What has changed is that I do at least see the possibility of that the helpful and useful could fall in my path. I’ll keep my eyes and ears open.
February 6th, 2007 at 8:54 pm
Hadn’t got you down as an astrology follower —- though I suspect many of us sneak a peek at the astrology page now and then and especially when we’re feeling low or anxious.
Since I’m also Cancer (12 July) I shall look out for these fortuitous events and turns of events: have to say I’m no good at noticing them either >> Cancerian trait ?
Tread boldly !!
February 6th, 2007 at 10:17 pm
Hello John
No, I’m not generally an astrology follower (though I do indeed sneak a peek in the paper on a Sunday!). I wasn’t looking for my horoscope, I just stumbled on the page, and I don’t suppose it would have mattered where I saw what I saw (though the horoscope aspect did add to the feeling that I was reading something directed at me) - it was more to do with reading something that so clearly answered how I was feeling and (briefly at least) made me feel a whole lot better.
Your almost twin
Michael
February 7th, 2007 at 12:55 am
When I was first ill (M.E.)I quite often sort out the (then) comforting words of Jonathon and Marjorie Orr……….it was some sort of balm; some strange way of trying to hold on to something, anything, so I might work out what the hell was happening to me.
Now I never seek them out but occasionally I catch a glimpse and there is something that resonates. Strangley, your very last comment resonates in the same way because my best friend at school had his birthday the day before mine and we were always known as ‘the twins’ at school. Sadly , he died 10 years ago and I still think about him almost every day.
Good to have your regular missives once more
February 8th, 2007 at 7:01 pm
I’m glad it helped Michael. Believing that there was some kind of reason for my ME was the one thing that I clung onto. I’m still exploring the reasons. But having a reason rather something arbitary is easier for my brain to accept. The horoscopes briefly I think make you think about life is a slightly different way which sometimes helps.